It's strange how nothing has changed, but I'm feeling better. Last night I was in the depths of despair and tonight I'm calm and content. How does this happen? Everything around me is the same. I shouldn't question the good feelings, but I find that I do. Why, if everything is the same, do I suddenly feel better? My only answer is that it must simply be another manifestation of the illness.
And so I often find myself wondering, will I ever get better?
This weekend, despite my dark thoughts and feelings, I imagined myself functioning at a higher level--a level more "normal". I imagined myself accomplishing my goals, both old and new. But all this depends on my ability to get better.
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